This morning Hammie tried rice cereal for the first time and let's just say he wasn't impressed. I don't think he swallowed any of it, and the entire attempt probably only lasted about 10 minutes before he made it clear he had had quite enough of this new experience. I think we're going to have to change his nickname to Anton Ego; "I don't like food, I LOVE it. If I don't love it I don't swallow."

The formula feeding isn't going any smoother here either. He still gets royally pissed whenever I try to give him a bottle of formula (he isn't too thrilled when breast milk arrives in a bottle either). It's hard to tell how much of the formula he is really drinking too since he spits a fair amount of it out while he is screaming and lots more seems to dribble out the sides of his mouth and down into his neck roll. Nice. I just don't remember Fraser being this violently opposed to formula when he started it (and he was allergic to it), but maybe I have just blocked that out. Unfortunately, continuing breastfeeding doesn't seem to be an option anymore. It looks like my milk is drying up all on it's own (the same thing happened with Fraser, but by then I was so sick of pumping I didn't care). So Hammie is either going to have to learn to drink Formula out of a bottle or starve to death. I think he is still weighing the pros and cons of both options.

I realized the other day that one of the reasons parenthood is so freaking exhausting is that it is such an emotional roller coaster. One minute Fraser is pulling plugs out the wall, kicking Hammie in the head and using the closet pole to try to skewer the cat and I'm screaming at him and using all my earthy self control not to pummel him with a blunt object, and the next minute he is kissing Hammie's head and hugging my knees and I think he is so sweet I just want to cry to think he will ever get any bigger. I feel like each day I now experience the emotional equivalent of a month before I had children. Its no wonder I feel like I could sleep for a week and coffee is, once again, my very best friend.