Well, it is officially official. Today I am exactly 12 weeks and 5 days pregnant, which puts my due date at August 4th! Despite the fact that this was a planned pregnancy, and I have had 12 weeks and 5 days to get used to the idea, I'm still feeling a little stunned (giddy, but stunned). We have only told a handful of people so far, and the reaction seems to be pretty uniform.... happy surprise.... followed by a little quick math...... followed by, "So wait, your kids will all be how far apart?" Yes, I do realize that we are choosing to have our third when Hammie will only be 20 months old, but Hammie and Fraser have done so well together that we felt the 18 month-ish division works well for our family. So, here we are.

Being pregnant while caring for 2 kids has been a whole lot different than when I was pregnant with Hammie and had only Fraser to take care of. When I had morning sickness with Hammie I just took naps with Fraser and convinced Fraser to play quiet games while I lay on the floor. This time there are no naps to be had and quiet play time is brief at best. I guess this is one of those experiences that teaches you to appreciate right where you are in life, because you don't realize how good you have it right now.

At the ultrasound we did see the baby's heartbeat, which was very reassuring (and we got the cool photo above to take home. Andy still insists he doesn't see the face at all.) but the baby wasn't moving much which, in the ultra paranoid and high anxiety world that I inhabit, has made me a little more stressed that I would like. Obviously I realize that the baby was most likely just asleep during the ultrasound, but again, if their is a dark side to be found I will find it and worry about it until I feel ill (and then some after that too). Still, I keep reminding myself that there is nothing I can do now except try to relax and concentrate on growing a happy, healthy person. That, and obey my freakish pregnancy cravings by eating tons of jalapeno poppers and Indian food (if only they had it here!) and drinking cranberry juice by the gallon. Is it weird that those all sound really good together?